SIDEBAR UPDATE 12/28

--I Want Him... (well, this ain't a shocker. lol)
--This. Boggles... (and i'll stick with it.)

[REVISED]

old: I Can't Believe I Dig This Shit
newly added: I Clicked, Loaded, and Awed. (It'll have a video that really made go loca on how hot or amazing it was...)

so who TOPS who...

i stumbled upon this pic a few weeks back, and i just HAVE to share this to you all...

there has been SOO MUCH SEUNGHO and JOON luv lately...
so this made me see em in a different, and slightly erotic light...

does this picture "grab" your attention?



awww... i would LOOOOVE to stroke that...

a JOOMI smut that rocked my bed.

Ok. I know i said that I was gonna avoid fanfics...
'Coz I know myself too well to not let this become my newest daily routine as I MBLAQ everyday.
But there was that one night where I just HAD to read one fanfic to put an end to this curiousity of mine.
One.
Just one.
And I decided to read a smut.

So i went to this MBLAQ fanfic site and, man...
There were just soo many of them to choose from...
Pick your poison.
Do you want JOOMI?
SEUNGJOON?
G.O/JOON?
JOONDOONG?
even JOON/RAIN?

How dirty do you want it?
PG?
PG-13?
R?

I went ahead and looked for
pairing: JOOMI
rated: R (coz that's how it's supposed to be done.)

So, this is the one I picked, for my first one.
And I gotta admit.
I think this got me hooked.
Uh-oh.

I Want You to Love Me

Mir sat on his bed looking at the wall. His pout hid nothing. Joon looked at him with a questioning look on his beautiful face. Mir ignored him when he moved to sit next to Mir.
“Mir, what’s wrong?”
“Nothing. I’m mad at myself.”

“Why?”
Joon placed his arm around Mir and the younger boy flinched. Joon’s touch was so warm and comfortable.

“I’m not telling you.”
“You can tell me anything. We’re friends, Cheol Yong.”
“That’s why.”
Joon eyed Mir; he used index finger to turn Mir to face him.
“Tell me.”
Joon’s eyes were like burning embers. Mir felt his heart beat rise with the intensity of Joon gaze. If he looked at Joon any longer he would crumble to his will.
“ChangSun, please!”
“Cheol Yong!”
Mir turned away quickly. He felt tears building up and he wanted to stop them, but he had no strength to. Joon glanced at the door and back at Mir, who had his back turned to him. Joon knew in his heart that something was wrong and it pained him to see Mir in pain.
“I want to help you. Please!”
Mir didn’t turn around.
“Please!”
Still no reaction.

“PLEASE!!”
“I WANT YOU TO LOVE ME!” Mir yelled.

Joon could tell the young boys heart was racing; he was panting and he was red in the face. Joon wanted to hold him, but held it back.
“Mir…”
“I know right.”
Mir laughed with no emotion. Joon remained silent. Mir needed to talk.
“I know you’re not into guys. Its okay, I’ll get over you.”

Mir gulped, “Can we forget about this?”
When Joon didn’t answer, Mir began to stand. Joon caught his arm and pulled him back down. Wrapping his arms around his Mir, he rested his head on Mir’s shoulder. Mir looked straight ahead, unblinking.

“I do love you. I was waiting for you to say you loved me back.”
“I love you.”
“Then face me.”
Mir slowly turned to him. His fresh tears had made his face wet. Joon touched Mir’s cheek and kissed both of them. Mir stopped crying.
“My I hold you?” Joon asked.
“Yes.”
Joon pulled Mir closer and balanced him on his lap. They rested their foreheads against the others. Their hearts and breathing were the only noises. Joon looked up at Mir and stopped his breathing.
“Mir.”
“What?”
“I want you and only you.”
“I feel the same.”
Joon kissed Mir with his soft lips. Mir felt his head begin to spin. They continued to kiss and moans escaped from Joon as Mir moved his hips upward. The younger boy sank lower into his boyfriend’s lap. Joon felt himself begin to hunger for more of Mir. They rocked back and forth as the tried to gain dominance. Eventually Mir grew tired of gaining no ground.
“Joon,” he said before slipping his tongue into his lover’s mouth.
“What, my love?”

“Remember what I said before?”
“That you wanted me to love you.”

“Well now I’m rephrasing it.”
Joon yanked Mir’s lips to his and slid his hand up the maknae’s shirt. Mir seemed like he could die, but he seemed to purr instead.
“What’s your rephrase?”
“I want you to do me.”
Mir pulled back and landed on the bed with Joon onto of him. Joon smiled at him.
“How hard or tough do you want it?”
“Gimme all you got.”
Joon sexily kissed Mir while somehow removing his clothing. Mir ripped Joon’s shirt off and pulled him in for another kiss.
“Tell me if I hurt you.”
“I’m sure my pain will be masked by pleasure.”
Joon hovered over Mir and undid his pants. Mir blushed when he saw how much larger Joon was than him at that point. Maybe he wasn’t as excited his lover? That soon changed when Joon licked Mir from his pelvic to his neck. A long, lustful moan was emitted from Mir.
“Mir,”
“Go.”
Joon widened Mir’s legs and placed his hands on the inside on Mir’s thighs. Joon looked at him and smiled.
“I love you.”
“I love you, too.”
Joon calmed himself and entered Mir. Mir felt his breath get caught in his throat. Joon was inside of him. Joon glanced at Mir and noticed his eyes were closed. Mir didn’t say anything so Joon began to thrust himself forward slowly at first, but then getting faster and harder. Mir’s moans turned into yells which turned into screams. At first it was tight, but as they went farther with their love, they both became comfortable. Mir moved his hips and caused Joon to smiled and comment.
“Yes, Cheol Yong.”
Mir wasn’t silent either.
“Harder! Faster!”
Joon came about five times, but Mir always wanted more. He replied with the same sentence every time.
“No, don’t stop; I want more!”
Joon had forgotten Mir was eighteen and had the energy of an Energizer Bunny. Mir had semen all over him by the time he and Joon ran out of energy. Onto of that his ass hurt.
“Need shower!” Joon gasped.
“If we shower do you think my ass will loosen up?”
Joon laughed, “Want to go try?”

“What are they doing?” Cheon Dung asked trying to see over the hyungs heads. SeungHo and G.O blocked his view. This was rated R.

...........ay yay yay.............
I read this at around 2:30 in the morning, and boy...
I could NOT hold my gasps and shrieks.
This.
This made me wuna...awww...
I dont even know what to say...
Mmmm...
Now...
If I can find one that's JOONHO...

(fan fic credit: http://community.livejournal.com/mblaq_ohyeah/17454.html)

my new occupation: SKANK ASSASSIN.

This issue needs to be addressed.

For those that do not know me very well, let me explain to you my feelings towards my favorite IDOL peens being associated with girl IDOL groups, or just with any girl.

MY.
BLOOD.
BOILS.
like a melting pot of metal.

I can't stand it.
My heart pumps so much.
My pulse beats much faster.
My stomach hurts.
It's like a bad disease...

I feel like I have been deeply stabbed in a heart whenever I see atrocious images like these with these fuckin' TWIGS all up on my MENS.
Seriously.
I have not looked at any other celebrities and thought of them the same way as my main loves.
I have always maintained LOYAL and FAITHFUL with them, and then I see these...these horrific and brutal captions...
It seriously breaks my heart.

And these senseless skanks.
Dont they realize it's SUICIDAL to even be in the same ROOM with these boys??
You hoebags do NOT know what y'all are getting into...

---

OK. Enough chit chat. Let's do some damage control.

Here's SKANK TARGET # 1



Her boney hands will be chopped. What. You dunno how to skate? You got no fuckin' balance or something? And you had to have JOON's help? How dare you hold hands with him...How DARE you.

SKANK TARGET # 2



She shall be stabbed in the back. With those ninja blades. How's that for a "scandal"?

---

I feel like this assassin mission is just beginning. Sadly, there will be more whores to get rid of.
Oh well. I guess I'll just need to buy more weapons then.

(If you come across more pictures like these -__-, lemme know. I shall include them on the SA list.)

this is why MIR wears the dog collar...

What. An. ANIMAL!

The way he shows his aggression by biting that long string hanging from CHEON DUNG...

The way he sticks out his tongue like he has the need to lick something...

The way he continously tries to bite G.O's finger as he teasingly directs it near his mouth...

Aww, MIR. MIR, MIR, MIR...
I don't mind bein' your main bitch.
*whispers* Don't tell KpopxFanatic... *wink*

(gif cred: KPOP GIFS @ LJ)

Nothing’s Better than Fangirling in LA. Part Two. The Premiere.

(NOTE: This is a FANGIRLing post. Go google NINJA ASSASSIN LA PREMIERE if you just want pictures or full details about this event.)

Thursday. November 19. This is it.

I woke up extra early, like around 7:30, to get ready. Then I headed off to Michaels to buy some poster paper to make my little poster for the premiere. LOL. I got some minor paper cuts in the process but, hey, it was all for RAIN.
So I got home, and worked on the poster. Then, ding dong! Yes! My friends arrived! This is seriously happening…

After an hour or so drive on the freeways, we have arrived.
Los Angeles.
Hollywood Blvd. 4:00pm
When we got out of the car, and I was already giddy. My friends can easily sense my nervousness and excitement. And that’s just getting out of the damn car!

So we headed to the Grauman’s Chinese Theatre and saw that they were already setting the place up for the celebrities and of course for dearest RAIN.








Man, the thought of RAIN being in the same city as me, how can you not wet your pants with that fact.

Now, this is me and my friends’ first time going to things like these. So we were kinda lost and clueless with how it’s gonna go down. But they spotted a little crowd on the other side of the street. RAIN FANS!! YES! So we crossed the street and I approached to these two ladies and asked them about the rundown of what’s gonna happen.
So, apparently, we have to stand behind the barricade, don’t even think of leaving our spot, and just wait. Wait til fuckin’ HOTNESS arrives in a SEXY ass car. Ok, they didn’t say it like that, but they might as well have.


So, after that was all cleared up, I saw that there was a big RAIN banner lying on the floor. I saw that there are some of them that already signed it, wishing him good luck, congratulating him, professing their love to him, you know, the usual.


So they asked me, “Are you a RAIN fan?” At first I was like, what kind of a fuckin’ question is that? Am I a FAN? Did I not give you a hint when I asked you about what was gonna happen, then as you were telling me all of this, I was hyperventilating from excitement? Aish… Then, I replied, “Oh my God. YES!” Then they asked me if I wanted to write on the banner, by which I said, aggressively, “OK. Give me a pen.”

Now. I‘m more of “Blackhole“ than a Cloud, mind you. I shall upload what I wrote for him on my other post that relates to MBLAQ. So please, anticipate. *bows*

After I wrote my good words for him, I went back to my spot and just waited. Yup. Just me. The other 3 left me there to explore wherever they can in Hollywood Blvd.
So there I was. On my spot. Not leaving it.
Waiting…
Waiting…
Wait.
Oh! That’s amusing. Ninjas!


When I saw them out there, I just had this wild imagination in my head. What if one of those ninjas was actually RAIN?! There he was with the black costume, then out of nowhere, just strips them off and just exposes his SUPER BUILT SUPER TONED FUCKIN’ SEX UP BODY of his, then just jumps off the top, crosses the street, by which all the cars that would pass by would just hit their breaks so they can let HOTNESS walk the path, then as he approaches our side, he would then aggressively say, “they’re coming” with that *grunt* voice of his to these horned-up fan girls/ladies! Oh yes. They are. We are. I am. Hard. Aww, what a wonderful sex scene on a semi-cold late afternoon. But enough with my dirty fantasies…

I think we probably waited a good and long hour an a half for him to show up. And boy was the crowd restless.


I was super lucky enough to get on the very front of that spot.
And THEN, I swear to Jeebus, there was this one broad that tried to shove herself to be in the same spot where I was. I was like, in my head, “What the fuck is she doing? Trying to take my spot? Does she know who I am?” So I kept my stance, remained calm yet aggressive at the same, and made her realize that she ain’t doing that shit to me. Hail nah. In the end, her sad attempts was just a big fat FAIL. Bitch I called that spot a sweet hour ago, so BTFO. And that’s when I tweeted…


Oh, thank the heavens my friends came back after their little sojourn. They kinda distracted me from all these restlessness that I was feeling. But all I really talked about in the process was how fuckin’ GORGEOUS RAIN is. And then it got into who’s gonna show up in the premiere. Sadly, I didn’t think there would be a lot of big names in that premiere since RAIN is just starting out in Hollywood.

Let me just say this. Thank GOD the KPOP force is not that strong here in the US, because if RAIN is fuckin‘ blown up here, oh man. I may have to camp out with the rest of these crowd of bitches that want to see his FINE ASS. As you can tell, the crowd was a decent amount. But not overcrowdedly suicidal. Like New Moon. Those freaks. What‘s so hot about that vampire? Note: I don’t want your hate/persuasion comments please. If I see one, *delete*.

As we waited and waited there were these guys that were handing out a mini poster of NINJA ASSASSIN.


So I asked one of my friends to save my spot so I can grab one. Then awhile back, I also got a BI fan from this RAIN fan club. Which was kinda funny because why the hell would you need a fan on a cold, freezing day/night. I don’t know. But whatever. Ha! Then some guy just randomly hands out NA COASTERS. And it was shaped with that blade thing that ninjas use to kill off the enemy. It was just mediocre merchandise galore up in that place. It was great.
But. This.
This tops everything that I could ever receive.
I felt a tap on the back, and there’s these two girls that asked me if I wanted to watch the ADVANCED SCREENING OF NINJA ASSASSIN. And then they said that I have to come in immediately if I want that offer.


I kinda hesitated, because I was kinda confused with what was going on. But, good thing my friends were explaining to me with where I was puzzled about by which I said, “OK, I’ll take it.” The only problem was, I didn’t want my friends to get in trouble if they get home late. But then they said, well the screening is at 7 and it should end in 2 hours, so we should still get home on time. And they were just encouraging me to go since this will never, NEVER ever happen again. So just take the opportunity. Then, I was like, “OK, I’LL WATCH IT!” THEN, they reminded me that I would be in the same theatre with him. With RAAAAAIN! That. That got me super pumped. My heart and my pants were pumping so hard I thought they were gonna explode. Like dynamite.

6:30pm
Ok. He was suppose to show up 30 minutes ago. Where is RAIN???? Oh sweet RAIN, when, oh when will you grace us with your SEXY presence? The crowd is getting restless. I am getting restless. My heart was beating so hard, I thought I was literally gonna pass the fuck out in fuckin’ LA streets. Not here. Not now. Just show up, BI.
Then, a car came. When one came, we were trying to examine who the hell just came out. Is it a guest celebrity? Is it a co-star? Is it him? Then when the man got out, the crowd on the other side started to scream! Now, as he was still on the other side. We were all like, “Who is that?” “Is he in the movie?” “He looks hot from afar, I wonder who it is?”
And then, he crossed the street. Oh Lord. He’s going to our side. The crowd went NUTS! People were screaming and shouting! Hell, I was shouting too, and I don’t even know who the fuck he is! So he approached us and gave the lucky ones his autograph. Hehe. And I was one of them.

Apparently, his name is RICK YUNE.



He plays the guy who beated the shit out of Raizo in training but was eventually got his ass kicked in the end. God. This guy is very very HANDSOME in person.
And I even got his signature. Awww! This is getting crazy!

So after that craziness happened there were also other personalities that arrived. The only one that got me pre-jizzing was when QUEST CREW arrived. Uh, actually, I wasn’t even sure if that was them, nor was that their name. But it just came out like that. As it did, I just stuck with it, and believed it.

And, then it came. A black, shiny SUV parked beside the pathway. And here we are. Waiting. Anticipating. Panting. Losing my senses.
RAIN has arrived.
And we were YELLING and SCREAMING like there’s no fuckin’ tomorrow. I was to the point that I was jumping like a MADWOMAN, and then screaming my lungs out the same time!
Then he crossed the street, and we went fuckin’ ballistic.

It was so unbelievable, the presence he had. He approached one fan and signed the poster. Lucky, mothafuckin‘ bitch bastard. I hate you. And he just shook hands to everyone in that front row. Where I WAS!
And then he stood in front of me, and, OH. MY. GOD.


He shook my hand.
My left hand.
Oh LORD.
It was like touching the almighty heavens.
That right hand.
His right hand.
Man. It was so soft. I felt like I just caressed his soft face.
OHH, and his face. Omigod.
He is SO AMAZINGLY BEAUTIFUL IN PERSON.
He is VERY HANDSOME and VERY CHARMING.
Like an Asian Prince.


And he is SUPER NICE and FRIENDLY to the fans.
I was literally FROZEN when I saw BEAUTY that is in RAIN.
I already thought he was very good-looking during the NA promotions, but ACTUALLY seeing him in PERSON, just made me say, “Man, he is perfect. Just PERFECT.”


So, when he passed by everybody, he went ahead and got back to the other side, where I wish I was…*sigh*


Then, some girl that I talked a bit asked me this question that literally made me quiet and which also stumped me.
“So, who you love more now? JOON or RAIN?”
Seriously? God. I could not give her a straight answer.
After all of that craziness that just happened, we then decided to head off to the theatre entrance. But before we crossed the street to the other side, I was getting a little bit emotional with this whole thing that just happened to me at that moment. Attending the premiere, meeting a big celebrity, getting the screening ticket; it was just too much excitement in one night for me, I thought I was going to break down. I even told my friends, “Please, don’t talk to me right now. I need a moment.” But, 10 seconds later, I just shook it off so I won’t cause a scene.

So there it was. The entrance to the premiere. Before I entered, I went ahead and hugged my friends so tightly, and let them know that I wouldn’t have made it this far without them. Sounds so cheesy. Eck. So I walked the pathway, and before I entered the theatre, I stopped my footsteps to be memorized by RAIN’s amazing profile. I was basically standing there, just looking at him for a good 20 seconds, very enticed by his presence. Awww… Then I had to end it when I saw that the security guy was giving me the stank face, so I went ahead and entered the theater.

Ok. As I got in, I felt so fuckin’ lost, I didn’t know what to do at this point. Luckily, I saw those two girls that help me get in the screening. And, of COURSE, they’re ALSO KPOP FANS! Not only are they big fans of RAIN, they also like and worship MBLAQ!!!! Especially LEE JOON!!!!!!! It was a great feeling that I found crazy KPOP fans here in CALI! So they told me their little plan before we go to our seats. We just stood there for a few minutes to wait for RAIN to come in the theatre so we can get a picture or autograph or whatnot. So we waited and waited ‘til he finally entered and we immediately rushed over to him. So the first girl went ahead and took a pic with him. My thoughts were we were gonna do an individual pic with him, but the security lady was telling us that he has to get to his seat. So the other girl went ahead and handed him a marker so he can sign the poster. And what was I doing when this was all happening? Nothing.
I just stared.
I just stared at his gorgeous profile in that dim lighting.
Again, I was stunned.
So the SL insisted that he had to go, by which he did. And we just gushed and awed at how beautiful he was in person! Afterward, we sat down to our seats and we were about 15 rows away from RAIN. RAIN. In the same theatre. Watching the movie. It was so insane, just knowing that he’s there. THERE! Man…

And then as everybody was seated, the movie started. I could not even concentrate on the first 10 minutes of the movie, because of how overwhelmed I was with just EVERYTHING. One of the interesting things that happened during the movie was how FUCKIN’ LOUD the SCREAMS are whenever RAIN’s face showed up on the screen. Which was 90% of the damn movie. But hell, I screamed fuckin’ loud, too. I mean, have you seen the PREVIEWS? And the PICTURES? That SEX BODY deserves more than a lung-bursting SCREAM. They need to be caressed, licked, oiled, rubbed…Oh the possibilities…

I‘m not gonna talk about the movie too much so I don‘t give anything away…

After the movie ended, we waited for the end credits, and AGAIN, bitches screamed when RAIN’s name showed up. And, again, I did too.

Here’s one thing that I would say about NINJA ASSASSIN…that movie is ORGASM WITH BLOOD. And it just adds an extra *UNF* knowing that the MAIN CHARACTER is in the same fuckin‘ theatre as you. Oh, Lord have mercy.

So, here we were. Waiting for RAIN to get out of his seat so we can try our attempt to get something from him. So we got out of our seats, and stood in the back, waiting. Then we prepared ourselves when he started to walk to the pathway. We then immediately rushed towards him but them security fuckers were blocking us from him, but we still kept on following him as he exited the theatre. And I swear to God, I thought I heard one of them say, “There are 2 teenagers rushing…” So we basically followed his sweet, sexy back until he enter to his black car.

When I met up with my friends after the movie/Rain stalking, I felt as if I just had hardcore sex with what I just witnessed and experienced. They couldn't even stand my overly sexual opinions about it. I feel like it's more of a girl movie since there's so much scenes that makes you want to wet your panties. It's a must see if you're a RAIN fan or if you like to watch dirty, sweaty, bloody, cut up, and very enraged men with swords and blades.

This whole experience that I had was just so mind-boggling and outrageous. I wouldn’t think I was gonna go that far to actually seeing him that up close in person. Just being in his presence was extremely overwhelming to handle, I was surprised I didn’t pass out in front of him. I just started out as hoping that I could make it to the premiere for pictures, to actually meeting him, staring at his beauty, and stalking him to his car like a true, hardcore FANGIRL. And I’m not even a HUGE RAIN fan. Honestly, I just started to like him when I got interested with MBLAQ and when NA started to release their promotions and such. I may not have gotten a picture of him or his signature. All I really needed from him was a handshake.
That.
That handshake.
That handshake pretty much fulfilled my sweet, dirty, and highly erotic fantasies about him. Just getting a feel of how soft his hands were…
Oh God…
If I didn’t jizz for that, I don’t know what then…
And plus, do you even KNOW where those HANDS have been??? DO YOU? Awww, one would only know…
And I know I’ve said this before, but meeting RAIN is like meeting the whole KPOP clan. Think about it. I am 1st degree to anybody, ANYBODY, that he encounters, knows, and talks to.
OMONA. I am 1st degree to MBLAQ.
To JOON.
*heavy breathing*


Seriously. Nothing’s fuckin’ better than FANGIRLing your heart out in LA. I shall remember and cherish that night. The night I was RAINed.

A special thank you.
I wouldn't have had this out-of-this-world, and super amazing experience without my crazy, camwhorin', caring, and loving friends who joined along just so they can sightsee in LA... <333
Without you fools, I wouldn't have had this larger-than-life night, which involved RAIN. :)
I love you, mijo!
I love you, you fatgirl!
I love you, 'Fer!
PS: And when I say, camwhore, I mean it! Thank you for sharing your amazing talents by capturing the beauty and sexy of RICK YUNE and RAIN.

Nothing’s Better than Fangirling in LA. Part One. Before the Premiere.

(BEFORE YOU READ THIS: Please excuse my disorganized writing skills and my grammatical errors. This is just gonna be me RAMBLING like a madwoman with what you’re about to read. So, if it‘s too much English fails for you, just GTFO. I don‘t need your lectures about how you can‘t have a run-on on a sentence…)

(and another thing. This is a FANGIRLing post. Go google NINJA ASSASSIN LA PREMIERE if you can‘t stand my ‘michyeo’ness about this.)

Luck.
I think that would pretty much sum up what this unbelievable journey has been of just experiencing SO MANY once-in-a-lifetime events in one whole night.

But, let me start this off with the obstacles I’ve had to go through before I got into this crazy, crazy night.

It was probably a few weeks ago when I heard that there was going to be an LA Premiere of NINJA ASSASSIN. And when I heard that shit, I immediately said,
“Janine. You are gonna do EVERYTHING that you humanly, possibly can to get into this premiere and meet the one and only RAIN. Because meeting RAIN is like meeting the whole CLAN of the KPOP empire. It doesn’t matter if you have to take a bus to drop you off to the train, then hop on another bus to get to Hollywood Blvd. You won’t give a fuck. You will FIND a way, and you will MAKE it happen.”
(Um yeah. Sadly, I don‘t have a car. Coz I‘m a babo.)
So, this was my original plan that I thought could work.
Drag a friend. Take public transportation. Stand and wait with the crowd. See RAIN. Go home.
That sounded so simple yet VERY ineffective. But all I kept on thinking is, “It shall work. Oh yes, it shall.” *evil smile*
The reality of that plan is, it’ll take us hours to get to LA, let alone going back home. That city is not the safest place to be in. I don’t even feel safe walking at night from where I live, so think about how “safe” I would be with those psycho freaks, hobos, and people with costumes. ‘Tis a frightening city.
But with these negatives that I’m getting with this plan, I still thought it will work.

It was the week of the premiere. I was getting restless. I was then starting to realize that there is little or no chance of me getting to that premiere with that “amazing“ plan that I thought of. THEN, my friend had to break the news to me that she CANNOT miss her Writing Class on that day. THAT DAY! It just had to be on that exact same fuckin’ day…
I was lost for words and ideas with my wanting to go to this premiere. I really didn’t know what think of afterward.

Then, it was my last day to think of a good plan for all of this. Wednesday. November 18. I only had less than 24 hours to think of what to do to make it there. I was getting desperate. Desperate to the point that I even emailed two up-to-date RAIN fansites (which I shall remain anonymous) to see if they can help me out with my problem. I seriously sounded like a desperate fan girl when I wrote that email. I let them know that I was not some old fart pervert, but I was just another 20 or so year old fan who wants to see RAIN. But what did I gain from that? Nothing. Not even one damn reply. Thanks, Clouds. Thanks for helping a girl out. At this point, I just thought to myself, “This is like, doing the impossible.” *sigh*

So, I got ready for work, very depressed and hopeless. Then, as I entered the store, I met up with one of my good high school friends. So we went ahead and said our HIs and at that moment, I just avalanched her on my PREMIERE problem and just let her know that I really really REALLY wanted to go there. So as she was listening to what I’m saying, I could sense her curiosity to the situation. Which bewildered me a bit. She was telling me things such as, “Oh, that sounds like fun!”, or “That would so cool!”. And then I heard her say, “I’ll go with you.” And then, my heart stopped. I had to make her repeat herself, because I don’t know if she was just saying that. But she was like, “Yeah, I’ll go to LA with you!” And, just to let you know, I NEVER asked her if she would want to go with me, or even think of saying my grief just so she will feel bad for me. And I didn’t like put a gun on her head to make her go with me. Nothing like that. Not EVER. And, note, she’s not even a RAIN fan. Nor does she know the existence of RAIN. She just wanted to go because she wants to be in LA, just like my other friend with the Wr. Class, who then tells me that she still wants to go. We’ll just have to wait until she gets off.

So I made my HS friend go on AIM to go on detail with the plan. Then my HS guy friend joined along and chatted as well. And when he heard that we were going to LA, he just said, “OK. I’m going.” So, now I have three people going with me to the city.
I was getting the chills after our chat. It sounded like it was actually gonna happen! But, we won’t know til the actually day arrives.

SIDEBAR UPDATES 11/18

check em out!

--My Men...
--I Listen To This...

everybody wants some J.O.O.N luv...

...and I don't blame G.O for that fact.

Damn, I just wish I was in HIS position right now.

Better yet, I WISH I was the goddamn PLAYING CARD!

Life ain't fair, ain't it. --____--

Oh well. That's why we produce dreams. ^____^
and it might get wet.

Here's where the action happened.

G.O.O.D luv-in' these BOYS!

On the second episode of the only show that I stay up all fuckin' night just so I can see these hot namjas on a little pixelated window, not knowing what the hell they're saying,
ART OF SEDUCTION, (even the show title hints sex...)
they decided to create a karaoke/music video of themselves just being sooooo cute and adorable (and odd...JOON) inside the shops and outside the mall with the tunes of G.O.O.D Luv.
(I'm even hatin' on that mall...It gets to be graced by their sexy-ass presence. Aish.)

WARNING: THE CONTENTS OF THIS VIDEO MAY NOT BE SUITABLE FOR THOSE WITH HEALTH CONCERNS. THERE ARE RISK OF FAST HEARTBEATS, BURSTING OF LUNGS, AND IMPULSIVE SPAZZING WITH WHAT YOU'RE ABOUT TO SEE.




Seriously.
I don't even know where to start.
That video was just bursting with

FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCKIN' CUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUTENESS!!!!!!!!!!!!

SEUNG HO.
I just love that the others are surrounding him like he's some kind of Sexy Lips God.
Location: a plush toy store.
Tis GENIUS!
The white fluorescent light just emphasizes how JUICY and PINK, FUCKIN' PINK his LUSCIOUS LIPS are!
And his skin. His milky, white skin. Aww... I have never desired milk like this in my entire life.
Milk.
And Starburst. Mmm...
And may I add...SEUNG HO and those PLUSH TOY PIGS that he's holding? Oh my GOD! I was containing my lung-bursting squeals, 'coz that was TOO ADORABLE!
SEUNG HO and a PINK, FAT pig. A perfect analogy for his PINK, FAT LIPS.

JOON.
The first few seconds of the video...JOON in sepia...Oh, Lord. It's like a Classic Soft Porn Actor.
Location: resting chairs, mall hallway
Continuing on with that, in sepia, he was lying down, his eyes closed, tilting his head up, which emphasizes the sexiness of his jaw, neck, and his mole on that neck of his. And his mouth was slightly opened.
And my dirty mind just went,
Oh yes. I just found his orgasmic sex face. Unf.
Aw, JOON. I caught you. Now, I gotta give you that face again. When we get freaky in bed.
And may I add...This video is probably one of the vids that you see how fuckin' ECCENTRIC this fool is. But lemme just say this. He seems the type that would be curious and adventurous when it comes to love making. I mean, he does ballet. Them strong thighs do them best.
Oh Lord, thighs and thrusts. Aww.

(sorry, but I am SEUNG HO and JOON biased.)

can't get enough of LIPS, i mean, SEUNG HO.

It's not everyday that I admire a good looking man with a thick set of lips...
I'm more on admiring the eyes, the physique, the face, the 'tude, all that...

But lately, mostly last October, we have been showered by some LUSCIOUS and JUICY that are in LIPS.

LIPS, I TELL YOU...

LIPS!

I don't even know how I could emphasize the MASSIVE explosion of THICK LIPS even more on these hot MENS!
Good God...

Examples?




cute and sexy GI KWANG (How the hell can you look sexy and then give off an innocent smile afterward?)


pout and sexy GEUN SUK (If you tune in to You're Beautiful, you'll get why I said, "pout"...)



air sex and sexy TAE YANG (If you haven't seen his air-humping dance move, ever, you are officially living under a rock.)
Oh yes. Lips, indeed.

But there is only that ONE hot namja that made me desire LIPS so fuckin' much like how much I desire lickin' JOON's CHOCOLATE ABS and getting a plane ticket to S. Korea so I can kidnap JOON and lick his CHOCOLATE ABS 'til he gives off this screeching, animal-like shriek noise. (And that's another blog for ya...please anticipate. *bow*)

*sigh* SEUNG HO.
SEUNG HO, oh, SEUNG HO... Wherefore art thou LUSCIOUS?




Oh Dios. This man got me wrapped up in his spell of pure leader-shii sex(y)ness. SEUNG HO has such an appealing character in the group. I love seeing his diplomatic side which shows how much he takes full responsibility of the group as well. He also keeps himself very cool and composed, as to compare to the other "michyeo namjas", which I will not mention any names...*cough* MIR, JOON *cough*

But, dammit, he is also SEXY as FUCK!
The way he pops he chest with that shiny leather shirt that he wears...
Those skin tight pants that just shows how manly "built" he is... ;)
Those big, piercing eyes that tells you he will fully "take care" of you from start to the "climatic" end...(you nasties know what I mean by that.)

And I haven't even mentioned his lips yet.

But first, let me share to you some vids that got me SUPER CRAZY PSYCHO NUTS with that best, oh fuckin' best ASSET of his.

Enjoy. And prepare to keep lickin' your lips for this.

(note: STARBURST* ALERT is the starting time mark where the FULLNESS occurs.)



STARBURST ALERT: 3:02


STARBURST ALERT: 0:03-0:08


STARBURST ALERT: 0:11-0:32
sideview: 0:44-0:46 / 0:50-0:52 / 0:59-1:01 /1:04-end


STARBURST ALERT: the whole entire video.

O Lord. Have mercy on me.
YANG SAMJOO.
UEEEEEEEEEE??????

Watching him and his lips get licked like that by the second, (and yes, he was constantly licking those things like it can't get any more moist that how it is already.) is just DRIVING ME CRAZY!
I could not stop looking at those PINK LUSCIOUS LIPS of his! They're so THICK, SUCCULENT, and DOWNRIGHT KISSABLE!
(if you wanna be a bit adventurous, it's SUCKABLE.
if you wanna be kinky, LICKABLE,
if it's a pre-sex gesture, NIBBLE-WORTHY,
or if you're a fuckin' animal, BITABLE!)
Them lips are so thick, not even a factory supply of CHAPSTICK can save his lip moisture.
It just hurts me inside that he keeps on licking them, keeping them moist, over and over during the interviews.
It hurts knowing that I can't fuckin' be there keeping them moist and smooth for him all day...and all night.
I start to believe those lips has its own mind. I swear. It's very separate from how he is. SEUNG HO is such a calm, headstrong, and poised individual. But that BEST ASSET of his... Man. His lips is just SEX.
PURE JUICY SEX.
If I ever, EVER get ahold of those things, I will never, EVER, let it out of my sight. I shall lick em, lick em, lick em 'til I ran out of spit. And blood. I just can't get enough of em.


Oh, SEUNG HO...no words. just *unf.

(pic/vid cred: absolutemblaq)

*STARBURST: a "delectable, chewable" term that is abusively used to describe the pink and juiciness that exists in SEUNG HO's LIPS.
: also, term originated by KoreanPopAddict

SB UPDATES 11/9

-My Men Hierarchy...
-I Wanna Give It...

NEWLY ADDED
-My cousin is...
Well, KPopXFanatic!
-Lemme Talk to You, Girl...or Boy
where I can be contacted

break up or cool off?

JOON. Babe. You know I love you, right?



But, last week, it has been hell. For me.



When I first set my eyes on you, you know that one thing that I desire from you, right?
The one that makes me think of the dirtiest things that I would wanna do when I get ahold of them.
The one that made me anticipate on how you will present that "desire" to me.
The one that I had to involve another guilty, sinful pleasure with that "desire" of mine in one sentence.

Don't even look me like you don't know what i'm talking about.



I'm in such utter disappointment with you, JOON. It's safe to say that I've done pretty much everything for you.
I talk about you,
I boast your sexiness to my friends,
I painstakingly find my way to dl the live performances so that I can have you for yourself whenever I want,
I think about you at school, at work, in the shower,
I place your pictures in a seperate file folder just dedicated to you,
I always have my eyes to you. Always.
But I don't know if you purposely don't want to give back the sarang to me this last week.
Let me just say...I'm hurt. I'm hurt that you don't want to give me the pure satisfaction that makes want to fantasize you in a sick, yet pleasurable manner.

Now this being said, I think it's time for us to...
*sigh*
Time for us to cool off for awhile.



Don't even try to look pissed when you know you're the one at fault here. I'm tired of blaming the cameraman, JOON. You're just bringing me down right now. I think this cool off is good for the both of us.

Don't worry, I'll still think about you, occasionally...

hurry JOON, SEUNG HO is catching up...

SEUNG HO is just hitting it to the ball park for me.
Oh yeah, SEUNGIE OPPA. Run the hand down to your body like a mothafucka. And damn those LUSCIOUS lips of yours. God DAMMIT! So juicy as fuck. Mmm... *bite lip*

JOON, where the hell are you? A killer smile will not save you this time, babe.

i'll be back JOON. i'm with SEUNG HO right now.

What is not to love about LEE JOON.


He's got the posture...
the face...
the dance skills...
the body...
damn that body...
those abs that are part of his body...
the curves of the abs that are part of his body...

Well, you get the point.
So it's safe to say that I am totally in love with this man.

But for the past few days, he kinda been drifting away from me...

And he's the reason why...


SEUNG HO.
I know i've talked about him on my past posts, but man.
I am seriously, SERIOUSLY falling HARD for this sexy namja.

Number one. His solo dance move.


see the power of the FMU on 1:48

Of all of the FMUs he did, this hit me straight home. HARD. Not only was their red outfits make them much more powerful and downright sexier...
But the way he was running through his hand starting from his chest, down to his stomach, and ending it down the upper thigh. Oh my god...
And he does this while chanting the words, "Oh yeah, Oh yeah, Oh yeah yeah yeah" with that you-want-some-of-this-jizz glare on his face. Awww...Damn.

Number two. His neck.



I don't even know where I should begin with this long, lean, sexy neck of his.
For some strange reason, I am so drawn to his neck of his. I can't explain why whenever I see it exposed in that manner, my mind and my pulse goes ballistic on me! It's funny because I'm not really a neck person (dealing the fact that I don't have one :/) but I just love it on SEUNG HO.
Everytime I stare at that long neck of his, I imagine myself approaching to it, caressing it slowly, then tilting my head towards it and just giving it a love bruise...awww...
And as I do so, I will then finish it off by moving my lips from his neck, then to his jaw line, leading it to his cheek, and landing it to my most desired part of him.

Number three. His DAMN THICK LIPS.


HOLY MOTHA MARY OF GOD! THOSE LIPS!
Can those lips get any JUICIER?
God. The things that i'll do before I get ahold of those LUSCIOUS, SUCCULLENT, JUICY lips of his. Mmmm...


His lips are so IRRESISTABLE, he can't even get enough of 'em.


I feel like I have to be a really good yoja for him before I even consider touching those sexy lips of his. I feel like I have to please him in a sensual manner by which he would let me know if he's satisfied by getting his body closer to mine. With that, he would then reward me by putting his lickable lips towards mine and then take me to his bed where we would be having a steamy make up session as he is on top of me and my very unworthy self. And as it gets much steamier, he would then grant my wish by letting me experience his very precious and strong "jewels" of his...
...and imma leave that to your dirty imagination 'coz if i go on any further, imma jizz all over this page.

Oh, SEUNG HO.
Why do you do this to me? Why? Why?

(pic/vid cred: absolutemblaq @ wp)

SIDEBAR UPDATES 11/7 and ALSO NEW ONES ADDED

So I updated a few of the gadgets, (check em out!) but I also added or revised one that I thought would me more interesting.

R.I.P to "WHAT ARE MY MEN TO ME."

...and say welcome to "MY MEN HIERARCHY".
I think this one is much more appropriate with how I am with my mens since I do change my taste every month. If I dig them a hella lot, they are on my top five, but if they're just mere eye candy, they're just at the bottom. So the positions do change, depending if I'm gettin' into another guy or something like that. You get my drift.

Let's move on.

And I would also like to welcome "I CAN'T BELIEVE I DIG THIS SHIT."
This is such pure awesome 'coz the KPOP world is not all amazing. There are those times were you wonder why the fuck would they even play this shit? But, if it's constantly shoved through your throat, you sorta learn to like it. Accept it somewhere in your heart, for some.

JOONs and HOs

This has been the one and only year where I liked and fangirled ALOT of hot, sexy men.
If my cousin, KPOPXFANATIC, didn't open my eyes to the exciting, sexed up world of K-Pop, I wouldn't been this loco to the backbone.
So, there was that one night where we were just talking about the guys that we simply adore and drool to. And then I started mentioned the guys that I like...

LEE MIN HO.
...this handsome debonair got me hooked on Korean dramas and eating ramyon with metal chopsticks.

YUNHO.
...the guy that made my head turn when he did that feel-me-up move, which also lead me into the DBSK craze.

JOON.
...the sexy ass mothafuckin' namja that me feel funny all over my body.

SEUNG HO.
...my other sexy ass mothafuckin' namja that makes my heart beat so fast, I feel like imma pass out on the floor.

DU JUN.
...this guy. aww...'slooooooooow'.

JUNHO.
...this big armed, big assed beauty. Mianhae for not noticing you from the start.

And this made me realize something.

These hot men that makes my pants extra funny includes the word JOON or HO in their names...
I was like, wuuuuuut??? That's way too coincidental. But you gotta admit...it's sorta true.

This really boggled my mind for that one minute.

where are you, 'WILL'?

I have sooooooo much things to talk about. (or so much mens to talk about, in this case)

The thing is, I just don't have a really good motivation to blog about them at the moment.

I'm such a lagger when it comes to this. Just like doin' my Japanese homework. Always fuckin' last minute.

Once I find my ever loving "will", I will DEFINITELY write about the goods that is in these hotness hombres.

Just give me time to do this.

Trust me.

It will be downright awesome.

Just like SEX JOON's face.


face of sex. period.

It will come, folks. It will come. Come. Come. Come. Come.

(pic cred: absolutemblaq @wp)

and the DONG is dropped.

As much as I love and adore DBSK, I'm just not feeling them right now.
Their absence in the K-POP AND the J-POP world has made my eyes and ears move on to other fantastic sensations that ruling over my monitor screen and my "kokoro".

Of course, everyone that knows who the hell I am know which group I am talking about.

So with that in mind, I am sadly dropping the DONG (東) in my link and replace it with K (which stands for Korean), and have the character BANG (方) still present.

I feel TERRIBLY HORRIBLE doing this, but it's just not right having that name when I write about people OTHER than the Dong Bang boys.

Who knows, maybe if it all ends well (on the 12th), then maybe I'll change it back. But the future is still pretty CLOUDy. (had to make a RAIN reference to this)

CAMERAMAN. Fail.

I don't know what to say about 10/31 performance of MBLAQ. Seriously.
I think I pretty much ranted it all on KoreanPopAddict's blog in a form of a comment.

Click here to hear my raging comment.

I don't even wanna post that video. It was horrible.
Fail. Fail. Fail.

Thank the clouds for the Power of Love Concert. DIRTY SEX JOON (yes. it took some tweets to give him that title that he deserves) heard our mourns and cries about the crime that that mothafucker cameraman did to him. To us.



Fangirls, rejoice!
And of course, I can't forget the G.O.O.D Luv perf that made everyone nuts in the head in 1:18.



I seriously thought my heart skipped a beat when I saw look on the camera. It's like his singing directly to me!!! Even if I don't know what the hell he's singing about, I thought it was very sweet and romantic. Aww, the sweet, innocent smile that he gave out. It was... Leaves me speechless...

I don't think it's LUST anymore. In the past, I thought I just liked him for his physique. But as he lets out more of his personality in the interviews, I just adore him more and more to the point that I probably...

LOVE HIM!

Aww, Lee Joon.

The only one that made me purr in the 10/18 performance, which surprised my cousin since I've never done that to my other loves.

The only one that made me think of dirty fantasies about what I will do when I get ahold of you and your god-like abs.

The only one that makes me stay up all night to see the latest performances that you and your abs did.

The only one that made me type in "peen" and "cock" in one tweet when you're brought up in the topic.

The only one that gave you a title.

LEE JOON.



준...사랑해요! <3

(pic/vid cred: absolutemblaq.wordpress.com)

RAIN on me.

Before I even entered into this amazing K-Pop World, I was already familiar with the infamous RAAAAAAAAAIIIIIINNNNNNNN...



Now, I haven't been on the scene in Korea since he's doin' his thing in the US. But, lately he's been gettin' a lotta hype from the press.

Lemme start off with this reason why he is bein' talked about once again.

MBLAQ.



These hot pieces of fine meat just happened to be produced by the Rain himself! They are his first boy group that he produced, and everyone girl, and possibly boy, just wants to get ahold of these hotness that he has showered upon us mere things.

NINJA ASSASSIN.



When I saw the Ninja Assassin poster after watching "Where the Wild Things Are", I just started to get more interested with it by the minute. I mean, it does have sexy Joon in the movie and all that, but Rain is the main guy, which I'm super excited about.

THEN, the inevitable happened.

So I was browsing along, getting updates so I could be on the know, and I see this headline talking about Rain in CNN. So I was like, "Oh cool, Rain's getting interviewed. Maybe MBLAQ might show up in one of the clips." (Yeah, I was all for MBLAQ before watching it) So I went ahead and played it, and I had to say. I was really impressed with the success that he has achieved through the years. Such a hardworking individual. You can see that with his performances and also...his rock hard body of his.

So, am I starting to like Rain because of just knowing a lil bit about him?

Not until I clicked on this video.



WOW!
WHAT.
A.
BODY.
He's got the body of a SEX GOD.
Rain.
Wow.
Just.
Wow.

But that's just the beginning. This is the video that got me hooked on him. Hard.



*sigh*
Oh, Rain.
Yes. That's all he needed to do for me to be part of CLOUD. I mean, I thought MBLAQ performed this dance pretty well, but...
SEEING THIS DONE BY THE MASTER HIMSELF??

UNBELIEVABLY.........
HOT!!!!!!!!!

I am so liking Rain, it's frickin' RIDICULOUS! In fact, I just dl'ed his "It's Raining" album. HIS ALBUM!!! It took me awhile to be like that with DBSK.

God. The power Rain has on women. It's unexplainable. I am soooo tunin' in for more of Rain. Even my Youtube agrees.



I am telling you now. This is not the end of me drooling about Rain.

It only has begun, folks.

You can always rain on me Rain, all day. Preferably, night. ;)